Last week was one of those weeks. You know the kind. Those weeks you find yourself juggling about a million things, stressed to the max and realizing that you aren’t giving 100% to any one them. As, women we have these moments often because we wear so many hats. On a daily basis I am wife, mom, daughter, co-worker, friend, chauffeur, chef, maid, diaper changer, bath time person, part time small business owner and college student (just to name a few). That doesnt even include my “hobbies” or anything I try to do for myself and don’t get me started on trying to fit in a little fitness. Sometimes it’s so overwhelming because I want to be the best version of myself for all those people and things. If I feel like I’m not doing a good job at these things, I get so stressed out and I don’t like to cut myself any slack. In my mind I should be able to deal with it all. I’m not perfect and neither is my life, but I like to set high expectations for myself. Maybe because I was the oldest- we’re the over-achievers, right? Or maybe because I spent my twenties being a complete underachiever. I was on a very long journey of self discovery. Or maybe because I lost my brother at a young age and know how quickly life can end. Maybe it’s a combination of all those things. The point is, sometimes I set the bar a little too high and I have to take a step back.
But, I’m also thankful for these crazy times in my life. I’m thankful when I feel like I’m on the brink of losing my mind. Why? When I feel overwhelmed, I know that I’ve been wrapped up in me and my many roles. I know that I’ve also been stretching thin everything, including my time with God and He is always right there, patiently waiting for me to realize that I haven’t been putting Him first. God has a way of reminding us that we are weak without Him. And I rejoice in that weakness, because it shows His power. So, Monday morning, I sat myself down in the quiet early hours, read my devotion, and had a little talk with Jesus to start my day off. It’s amazing how easily things start to fall back into place after that. God’s word is there to guide us and rejuvenate us when we are feeling overwhelmed. He is always waiting for us to turn to Him, deepen our relationship with Him, talk with Him and walk with Him through this life.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may reside in me. 2 Corinthians 12:9